Day 0225: Current Progress Report: 1/2, 1/4, 9/>12.
What is your True Fear?
Your Result: Being Alone
While you may act like you don't care on the outside, on the inside your biggest fear is being alone. You can be quite shy and reserved. You feel like a lot of times people don't really see the real you. You're afraid that no one will really truly love you, and that you will be alone for the rest of your life. On the inside you are great person, so just remember that and don't let your shy nature get the best of you! If you don't want to be a lone then you need to make an effort to be with someone. Show the people that you care about that you really love them, and chances are someone will always be there, even if you think they won't.
Some of you bitches and bastards thought I wouldn't make it through, and would seriously hope I wouldn't make it through. You said 'good luck', but I know. In your mind, 'Fail. Fail. Fail.'
But, I'm sorry to trample on your thoughts.
For all of you dumbasses who underestimated me...
For all of you idiots who thought I'm some sort of idiot...
I'll be singing in the bloody SYF.
Take that, cretins.
[Connection Terminated]
Memory Files Preserved at... 2:05 AM
Wednesday, February 18, 2009 '
Day 0218: V-Day? D-Day.
Before you go crazy having fun reading my torturous days (you f**king sadistic bastards), stop the immem player down there, and buffer this song. Commemorative video to my sad existence.
Mm-hmm. Whether you got that on or not, I don't care. It's name fits well with the title.
Anyways, V-day.
Sucked.
I was seriously on my own the entire way. The only company I ever had for that day was CJ (because we were playing a card game(which you do not need to know)) and the FI youths (because of YF).
That's how sad my life is. No wishes, but, screw that.
Auditions got canceled again for reasons I will not disclose. Confirmed this Friday.
In short, we're screwed.
But again, who gives a damn? I know I don't.
After all, I'm (so far) the guy with the 2nd or 3rd least amount of time to memorize all 3 songs. My fault? Bite me.
Screw you all. Only those who truly stay by my side will follow. The rest, go to hell.
If you don't like the fact that I've changed since the last year, screw you. Life sucks. And that's all I'll know.
[Connection Terminated]
Memory Files Preserved at... 5:58 PM
Wednesday, February 11, 2009 '
Day 0211: Screw this.
Everyone's anxious, scared, nervous. Friday the 13th.
Me?
Right now, I don't give a damn.
If I fail and don't get in to the SYF team, then screw it!
I'll watch the path my life goes by myself. Wanna stand beside me? Go ahead. But I'll bet you'll do that for only 1 week before you walk away.
...'Cuz that's the way all of my 'friends' have been treating me.
Frankly.
I'm tired of it.
Be a friend, or get lost.
Get it straight.
[Connection Terminated]
Memory Files Preserved at... 9:44 PM
Saturday, February 7, 2009 '
Day 0207: The (un)new beginning.
I don't know who took the test on Day 0202, but I can't care.
Road Run was... un-epic for me. The only epic thing? Running all the way without stopping ONCE.
No one cares.
I thank Evelyn and Joycelyn for walking with me along the road when we THOUGHT we could leave, back to the site when we were told we weren't SUPPOSED to leave, then walking with me again all the way to McDonald's, and actually allowing me to eat with them. And Fidelia who suddenly appeared outta nowhere midway, and shared my umbrella for a short while. And Rachel who appeared in Mac's with us.
Thanks for that Friday.
It won't be forgotten anytime soon, or anytime late.
Not until...
[Connection Terminated]
Memory Files Preserved at... 9:14 PM
Monday, February 2, 2009 '
Day 0202: Think you know me?
You think you know...
1) Alright, first things first. What's my real name?
I am myself in every way possible. I never hesitate to expose a person's lies.
And my life is controlled by a game.
The rules are simple - You trust me, I trust you.
You leave me, I ignore you.
You come back, I shut you out.
You threaten me, I'll make sure tomorrow's an impossibility for you.
The game has begun.
Didn't you know...? All hearts hide secrets. Dark ones.
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Who am I?
Ian Tan.
14/08/94.
Someone who suffers (very) short term memory lost...
Often noted as 'short-tongued'.
Daydreamer.
Singer.
Complicated. Long-winded.
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What? Likes?..
This matrix alone.
What? Hates?..
Everything else. Isn't it just nice?
Those things...
To be myself; no one else will tell me what to do.