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Monday, August 25, 2008 '
The Court of Song
Firstly, let's boot this up with personal recounts.

Friday:

Man. Today sucked. A science lesson after school at around 1.30 made me miss lunch, then Choir from 2 to freakin 6 made my dad angry that I didn't take lunch OR dinner.

Screw it.

Saturday:

Now THIS is the way I like it. Party time in the Supreme Court for a performance.

Time: 1-9pm. Sang 'The Fair Shore of Singapore', 'Sing a Song of Singapore (SINGSINGSING!!!!)' and Kerraban Sape.

We went sharp, but...ah well.

Sunday:

Due to my bro's being in camp, rents left early, rigth before sunday school. So? take the chance to get some KFC.

Chomp.

Animal Cruelty.

Nothing happened today. Deal with it.

And now...

Quiz.

RULES:
1. Put Your iTunes, Windows Media Player, ETC on Shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Put any comments after the song name.
5. Put this on your journal.

1. If someone says, "Is this okay?" You say?
Caution: Echidnas May Eat Your Brain - Daniel Baronowsky.
....Warning. Do it, and echidnas eat your brain.

2. How would you describe yourself?
Race to Win - Tony Harnell
I can race to win? No way. No. No. No.

3. What do you like in a guy/girl?
The Call - Backstreet Boys
This makes sense! Maybe I actually like the talking part...wait, WHAT!?

4. How do you feel today?
Almost Dead - Powerman 5000
I think the Game's been rigged. Not by reapers, by iTunes!

5. What is your life's purpose?
E.G.G.M.A.N. Doc. Robeatnix Remix - Paul Shortine and The Remix Factory.
I plan to be the Eggman that can beat it out. Yup....WHAT!?

6. What is your motto?
Game Over - Andy Kinlay
Mess with me, and it's game over, bitch.

7. What do your friends think of you?
Right There, Ride On - Hideki Naganuma
...Do you think of me that way? *Grabs a Surfboard*

8. What do you think of your parents?
Endless Possibility - Jaret Riddick
Anything can happen with those people. It's seriously endless possibilities.

9. What do you think about very often?
To Zanarkand - Nobuo Uematsu
Um...Final Fantasy?

10. What is 2 + 2?
Sk8er Boi - Avril Lavigne
It's 8. IT IS! NOW SHUT UP!

11. What do you think of your best friend?
Water on the Dancefloor - AkumajoBelmont
He really likes to water it out on the dancefloor of death.

12. What do you think of the person you like?
Houki Boshi - Younha
Houki boshi = Comet. So the person I like is my comet in the sky. That makes no sense.

13. What is your life story?
Live for Love United - Love United
This game is seriously rigged! Because I DO live for love. And I will live for Love United...~~

14. What do you want to be when you grow up?
Apologize - One Republic & Timbaland
Someone who can actually apologize...?

15. What do you think of when you see the person you like?
Passion - KINGDOM Orchestra Instrumental Version - Tokyo Philharmonic Orchestra
I hear the trumpets ring. No seriously, I do.

16. What will you dance to at your wedding?
After Dark - ASIAN KUNG-FU GENERATION
We will dance to After Dark, after dark!

17. What will they play at your funeral?
Someday - Hanaeryca
Someday we'll see each other again. Yup, yup.

18. What is your hobby/interest?
Numb Encore - Jay-Z feat. Linkin Park
To do encores without feeling nothin'. Live with it, brah.

19. What is your biggest fear?
Sonic X Theme - 4Kids Entertainment
OH GOSH NO! TURN IT OFF, TURN IT OFF! MY EARSSSS!

20. What is your biggest secret?
I Write Sins, Not Tragedies - Panic! at the Disco
Indeed. I only write the sins, not your tragedies. Muahah!

21. What do you think of your friends?
Scherzo Di Notte - Yoko Shimomura
No, guys. You aren't Jokers of the Night. Seriously. *laughs*

22. What will you post this as?
Caramell Dansen - Unknown Creep at 4chan
To quote Clarence: All quizzes end randomly. My response: Yes they do.

And here you go: CARAMELL DANSEN!



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Wednesday, August 20, 2008 '
Countdown: N/A. Results and awesome 14.
T2 made me realize this - I am 14 years old on the 14th day of the 8th month. How awesome is that?

>.>

<.<

The cake is STILL a lie.

Friday:

...sucks. Best part? No real english lesson : spent half the periods playing Chinese Chess with Shi De, Anthony and occasional KKK.

Either than that....nothing much.

No. Really.

Ok...Chinese Oral sucked. Bad. I know I'm screwed...

but I'm damned proud of it.

Saturday:

English Oral sucked.

Didn't go for YF today because I was actually concentrating on finishing up that IPW report that was SUPPOSED to be due on Monday. Finished at night.

Sunday:

Bombarded with askings of why i didn't go for YF in church.

After service, birthday celebrations! I have never realized how many ppl are born in August....Wow. Then my mom brought me to buy some comics....which turned out to be my presents. wth

Monday:

Today was...ok. Nothing new... Except Maths: 28/50. OMG Indeed.

Tuesday:

Science: 32/50.

Today:

Humanes Day!

Geog: 17/25
Lit: 18.5/25
Hist: 19.5/25.

...

Woot.

I was never born for happiness.
Just putting on a mask,
Making sure sympathy...
Never would be asked.


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Thursday, August 14, 2008 '
4 Hours till the End, 1 Day to End of Doomsday. System Reboot.
Finally. My day is here...but it ain't feeling that special. Ah well.

Maths:

The worst maths paper I have EVER taken in my entire life. For the first time, I got stumped so long that I missed out on a question. I'm sure to lose 8 marks now...at least I ain't alone...>.>

Lit:

Lit was fine. And fast too. Seemed as if only 15 minutes had passed...then boom. Hand it up. But I did finish everything.

Chinese Results:

I still have to get this signed...oh man. I didn't bring it home....I'm screwed...

Anyways, I barely failed. My Ting Xie will pull me up...so no worries....

Right...?

Home:

I can't believe it~~ My special day and I have to STUDY. What luck. Ah well...

Thanks to all who wished me Happy Birthday: Carmen, Clarence, Dad, Glen, Mom, Judith.

I feel happy.

But then again, life is taking a toll for the worse....

Crap.

Bury me in the sand,
Let the wind rush over me,
Forget about all that has began,
For all eternity.


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Wednesday, August 13, 2008 '
1 Day to Heaven, 2 Days to End of Doomsday. Incoming!
Guess what? ANOTHER World Record was broken during school today. That means...

MORE SCHOOL-WIDE CHEERING! WOOOOO.

*shot*

Ah well, actually, my current guess on that KH2 song is Vim and Vigor.

Sounds really like it.

Today on the agenda:

Science and Geography.

Science this time....was a throwback in the past, till the CA1. Which pure sucked.

Almost the whole class didn't complete the graph or whole paper, AGAIN.

So...

Geography was awesome! It was too damn easy...

Then again. It's getting unnerving.

>.>

Screw that! It's over, right?

Alrighty, went swimming (for the third time in a row), only for it to be RUINED BY RAIN AGAIN.

Screw the rain!

And I don't feel like studying. Seriously.

Laziness FTW.

And my parents are doing something behind my back....going for a trip maybe?

OSHI--!

Leave me alone in the dust,
Leave me in the sand,
Let me drown in the sandsea,
The sorrows of the land.


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Tuesday, August 12, 2008 '
Part 2: Surprise, Surprise!
Wow. Talk about ironical.

Okay, first, lemme announce that I have FINALLY beaten my dad in a game of Chinese Chess. He didn't notice my Ma could check him. And mate at that.

Second, I heard Kingdom Hearts 2 music at approximately 6.15 on the Wrestling Olympic Event. AWESOME! Still trying to remember WHAt song it was though... EDIT: It's a strong chance of Dance to the Death!

Third, I'm bored. That's all.

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'
2 Days to Heaven, 3 Days to End Of Doomsday. The End has Arrived... But it ain't the Apocalypse.
A freezing soul,
Living in a cold shell,
In the end, the world freezes up to him.


"Start!"

And with that, life goes down a really long road.

The exams have arrived, and man am I scared out of my wits.

Well...not really.

You grow older, you learn to slack it off a little......even if it IS important in the end.

Meh, whatever.

Onto the show!

Before Recess:

Whoa. What a ride. Chinese and English.

Two languages.

Weakest subjects.

But, hey. Chinese wasn't that bad. It was just HELL to go through. Managed to ANYHOW (OLE!) do my CiYuTianKong, and managed to TAKE MY TIME with the next two sections, LiJieCeYan and LiJieWenDa.

Woo.

English was....oh my gosh. I do NOT know how to say it.

That b*tch Lisa Wah still could not teach right. SHE DIDN"T EVEN TELL US WHAT WAS GONNA BE TESTED FOR THE GDAMN TEST!

But I still managed to complete it anyways...though out of point...

...

Meh.

During Recess:

"Wah! Free Olympics!"

That was what I said when Glenn and I noted that the TVs were showing Channel 5 with the Swimming events on.

So he suggested that we sit near the TV. Don't care bout 2H, just get those seats. We were the first class anyways, so...JOY!

Then when the women's backstroke 100m WR was broken (at around 10.20am. YIS I REMEMBER IT WELL.), you could literally hear the whole school cheering. We just had to. We are Crazy people after all. Take that, you creeps!

After Recess (AkA After D&T):

"Holy SHIT!"

My reaction when I found out that my extremely large file (with everyone's work in it) was missing. I will not elaborate, but do know that I almost blew up.

Like a volcano.

At Home (why the hell am I doing this?):

Uhoh. Have to study liao. But must go swimming first! xD

If only it didn't start to rain.

Hehe, now I really have to study.

Aw Geez!



...

My heart is filled with darkness...
No light to show the way...
Only you hold the torch...
Help me out of this dark day...

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Monday, August 11, 2008 '
1 Day to Hell, 3 Days to Heaven. OSHI----!!!
It's almost here. I'm so screwed.

Anyways, there's always the b'day to look forward to. Not that I expect it to be celebrated or anything.

Things happened on Sunday, regarding my parents again. So I won't say a word bout it. Meanwhile, nothing is going on.

But these Olympics are seriously taking my attention away from my studies. Whether that's good or bad, I don't care. Olympic events are the r0xx0rs.

...OCrap. Nothing to say. Ah well, see ya. Get to you guys on Friday.

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Wednesday, August 6, 2008 '
5 Days to Hell, 8 Days to Heaven. WTH is your EFFING problem?
My father is going completely insane. I don't even know if he IS my father anymore.

Every little thing I do, he finds fault in it.

I want to go down with him to the gym, he says 'YOU DON"T GO DOWN TO PLEASE ME. YOU SHOULD GO DOWN BECAUSE YOU WANT TO.' And guess what? I want to, but HE DOES NOT GIVE ONE HELL OF A DAMN.

What kinda crappy father is this?

He writes me off as a failure within 5 seconds: "You will give me crappy results, I just know it."

WTF!?

"These earphones spoiled because you wriggled it around your iPod, you never take care properly, of course spoil lah."

WTFH!?

It's not my fault. IT SPOILS OVER TIME! GET A LIFE INSTEAD OF CRAPPING ABOUT YOUR OWN SON!

And my Birthday is coming up, YOU WON'T EVEN GET ME A PROPER PRESENT. What the hell you gonna get me? A freakin paper doll!?

I'm your SON. You treat me like a SERVANT.

You think I'm here to please you?

I'm not. I'm here to live.

I don't need your b-ing.

My b'day won't be celebrate at ALL. I just know it.

I wanna die, now.

How can I be comforted when you don't care?
Leave me alone with a darkened heart...
And throw me away.


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Monday, August 4, 2008 '
7 Days to Hell, 10 Days to Heaven. Processing Data...
There we go. Finally found that window. Yup, you heard me, I made a switch.

Now Clarissa, no more lame jokes about lame URLs.

Heh.

And I think I've been excited today.

Ms Lisa didn't come to effing school, man! Score one!

The teacher was too lazy to take care of the class, so...MP3 all the way!

Today was a slacked life...but still. Heart still worries about...

The *betrayal*...of sorts...

Dammit, save me!

PS. B'day in 10 more days!

Would you give up friends for salvation?
Would you leave us behind while you run...?


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Sunday, August 3, 2008 '
8 Days to Hell, 11 Days to Heaven: Shifting from Gear to Gear.
Things are getting WAY TOO CHAOTIC for me to handle. My brain will explode and you will ALL feel the...okay, I won't say it.

Gore & Macabre xD

anyways, currently quite alot of things lined up.

For example, the Batam trip at the end of the year, the freakin Esplanade Concert, and...

Stuff like that.

And I'm also thinking of making ANOTHER sleepover....over at Someone's place...

Haha...

Okay. Enough crap talk. Onto business!

Friday:

Pure Chaos.

I think Ms Lisa is the BEST teacher in the world. Y'know why? Cause she took 45 minutes to have a normal SPELLING TEST WITH 20 FREAKIN WORDS! Mrs Goh got that done in 10!

She pronounces every effing word like a total moron, making 'scuttled' seem like 'SCOUTED'... which is idiotic!

I miss Mrs Goh's pro english pronounciation, at least there was fun in voicing our own pronounciations>.>...and getting scolded....

Ms Lisa is a total b*tch. One that belongs in freakin Primary School.

Choir...The day started out as normal, with Mr Kwei this time, who made jokes that made us cough our heart out, and crap like that.

Then when all was said and done, and he had left, hell arrived.

Auditiongs for ALL guys in Sops and Altos.

This meant every, single, bloody person.

So I went first, and Ryan asked April and Sandy to test my lower Tenor range. Which I didn't know...so I folsetto'd my way down...>.> Then I tried real voices for higher Tenor notes, and struggled. Used folsetto up to G, then was put in Alto temporarily.

The horror.

Saturday:

As a first-timer Alto, things are hard. First thing that I told Jennevy.

"What about Bin-Nam-Ma!?"

My greatest worry. Re-learning 8 songs. For one concert.

You don't wanna know.

Okay, so after that day, my dad brought me and my mom to watch The Mummy: Tomb of the Dragon Emperor.

Not too bad, quite...exciting. I think my heart jumped twice there.

After that, while my rents where getting supplies for breakfast, I msg-ed Sandy. Asked her bout the range, then she mentioned whether i wanted to hop back to sops. She suggested coming back as a Sop 2.

After a few msgs all over the place....I got back into the Sops.

I feel like a traitor all of a sudden...

Today:

Nothing interesting. Except for a bit of a bastard-y father....yep. That's pretty much it.

Oh. And my XB360 just started symptoms for the Red Rings of Death.

In short, GG.

Haz just called me out to see an ambulance...turned out to be a motorbike accident.

Talk about idiotic: The ambulance took 15 minutes to move away, even though there was a life at stake.

Used the binoculars (which are 4 years old) to get a better view: nothing serious, just a minor crash. Car driver okay, Motorbike cyclist, not that good.

Okay. Looks like everything's great...

So why carry on living a lie?
Stay true to what you believe...
Only then will you achieve...

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My Life
>>begin_intro Welcome here. If you somehow...hate me, go ahead...click this and get the hell out..

I am myself in every way possible. I never hesitate to expose a person's lies.
And my life is controlled by a game.
The rules are simple - You trust me, I trust you.
You leave me, I ignore you.
You come back, I shut you out.
You threaten me, I'll make sure tomorrow's an impossibility for you.

The game has begun.


Didn't you know...? All hearts hide secrets. Dark ones.
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Who am I?
Ian Tan.
14/08/94.
Someone who suffers (very) short term memory lost...
Often noted as 'short-tongued'.
Daydreamer.
Singer.
Complicated. Long-winded.

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What? Likes?..
This matrix alone.

What? Hates?..
Everything else. Isn't it just nice?

Those things...
To be myself; no one else will tell me what to do.

The past...

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