Recordings of a trapped soul.

Thursday, September 25, 2008 '

Day 0925: Disconnection.

Shit, shit, shit.

My dad noticed me trying to post some stuff on deviantArt and screwed me upside down.

He plugged off the wireless card aka the Internet.

So now, I'm half-disconnected from the world.

But, ah well. You're wondering..

"What the hell are you doing here then?"

I'm on HIS friggin computer...with permission.

Happened on Tuesday.

At least I've still got pencils for drawing...

And...

Hell yeah! Friday approaches!...

Oh wait..

HELL NO!

And also, Keane has found me a new Roti Prata shop that's been there for 2 years or more...and I've only just realized it existed.

Joy, roti pratas...

And...CRAP.

MONDAY APPROACHES!

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Memory Files Preserved at... 9:54 PM

Monday, September 22, 2008 '

Day 0922: The Cold Sun.

These past few days have been a bit hectic for me.

Not a bit, actually...

A hell-load of hectic essence dumped into my face.

However, I only remember shit up till Saturday...Meh.

Saturday:

Yep. Hell begins here. You'll need no passport, just two parents and some words.

DS got confiscated for what reason I have no idea.

Anyways, had some Golf Charity event organised by NYP...I think.

Met some good buds over at Hole 14, where Ryan, Marcus and I were stationed.

Two NYP guys there, a guy called Marcus and a girl called...Venya, I think.

Those were the fastest 2.5 hours of my life.

Just dipping my hand into a box of subzero-cold water to take out drinks to serve wanting players. Painful. I couldn't feel my hand after that.

Back at school, walked to the bus stop, took a 40, bought some chips at 7-11, boarded 51, traveled ALL THE WAY to church, reached at 5.15.

Oh yay.

The rest is...sucky history.

Sunday:

No. Nothing happened. Deal with it.

Nothing happened today either. Deal with it twice.

Yeah, so either than that,...Nothing much, really.

....CaN yOu FeEl ThE sUnShInE?

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Monday, September 15, 2008 '

Day 0905: Survival.

So we survived the LHC's attack. The one that apparently, no one gave a damn about. Heh. The next launch will be on the 21st of October.

Nothing much happening. Settler's cafe with the Youths two Sats ago was epic. It's all over Facebook...Hm...around...here.

Yeah, you'll see some people.

Then we had Fish and Chips for dinner, courtesy of Derrick and Priscilla...though they didn't pay for everything...

No, bro, I don't owe you nothin'! You're my brother, get over it!

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Yeah, life has started to take tolls on me. In heavy bunches. Like, 100% of me each day. If I were water, you'd see me in drains by now.

Right now, I'm trying to cope with life and friends (and insults).

Not an easy task.

Yeah, whatever.

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And now, I'm getting a fking fever. WTF. Now of all times.

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Tuesday, September 9, 2008 '

Day 0909: Time ticks...

Heard about tomorrow and how it could be the end of the world right there? T2, it'd be alot better if you hadn't told me about it, but...

While the rest of us go about our daily business, maybe worrying about our mortgages, the elections or perhaps even global warming, the European Organization for Nuclear Research (CERN) will conduct a multi-billion experiment that critics say could create a black hole right here on earth that will destroy the world. Unless an urgent appeal to the European Court of Human Rights by these worried scientists succeeds, the world’s biggest scientific experiment will fire up on Wednesday, September 10, 2008.

This bizarre experiment will use a massive (17 mile) donut shaped tunnel, deep underground and straddling the French and Swiss borders called the Large Hadron Collider to smash atoms together at around the speed of light. The purpose is to recreate the conditions that existed a fraction of a second after Big Bang – the birth of the universe – “to provide vital clues to the building blocks of life”, (Jonathan Petre, Mail on Sunday). They expect to generate sub-atomic particles never detected before, including the Higgs Boson, predicted by British Scientist Peter Higgs way back in the 1960s. The Higgs Boson is crucial to the theory of particle physics and current understanding of the structure of the universe.

The Large Hadron Collider even has its own rap (Rapping the LHC), written by Kate McAlpine, a physics graduate from Michigan State University who works in the press office at the CERN offices in Switzerland. “…Two beams of protons/ swing ’round/ Through the ring they ride/’til in the hearts of the detectors/ they’re made to collide!/ And all that energy packed/ in that tiny room/ becomes mass,/ particles created from the vacuum…” It’s pretty good.

But some scientists who are opposed to the experiment claim it may cause a black hole that could swallow the world. “The concern is that the moment we press the return key, the particle accelerator could create a black hole that might eat up the whole planet”. If a big enough black hole develops, the world will disappear taking us with it in an instant. Another worry is that a number of small black holes will develop and that these may join together over the coming months, wreaking increasing havoc with Planet Earth; causing earthquakes and breaking up the earth’s crust over time until the whole world is eventually destroyed. These threats have been discounted by the scientists at CERN, and by most physicists around the world.

Let’s hope the doomsayers are wrong and CERN are right! But if it all goes wrong, at least Zimbabwe won’t have to worry about Mugabe any longer…

GG, people.

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Thursday, September 4, 2008 '

Day 0409: ...Screw Life.

I guess SOME friends can't be lost....even if you don't feel them talking.

....Kim Hai, Adam, Kai Kiat, Kevin C., Crystal, Nadira, Clar, Mikey (you bastard at the same time >.>), DK, Ave, Den, Phoebe, and Ben.

I thank you all for your company.

I thank you all for your continuous friendship...despite tempers.

I thank you all for life in my empty shell I call a body.

...

I thank you all.

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Monday, September 1, 2008 '

Current Day 0109: The End..?

Life has taken a topple. Thanks for nothing, worldly companions.

The Main Topic: SHPS...Nothing else matters.

Teachers' Day sucked. I believe everyone was laughing at Ridh and me. Not with, AT.

Not gonna go in depth.

The return to SHPS was nostalgic. Thanks, Mikey, for accompanying me through the trip. I think survival would not be possible without guidance. Saw Ying Liang, Le Yuan, and some random bastard in teh bus. Thanks, YL, for actually saying 'hi'.

Busstop wait for 293 was quick and easy. Got to school, but drizzling. Ran across the road (though it WAS red), and got in safe and sound.

First objective: Exploring the canteen aka the Canopy. Man. Mikey complained about how Mrs Irene Ong (who had JUST returned 3 weeks ago) took his Artemis Fowl book in P4, and promised to return it....until she went away for that trip. Sad, really.

2nd Objective: Hall. Got in JUST as the concert was finishing, and saw Xiang there as well. Huh. Whatever. Mikey spotted Avelene, Mel and Tabitha (whose hair changed I couldn't recognize her....except through her face) coming a long way off. We waited for a while, Clar and Caleb popped up. HAI CLAR I AM TALLER THAN YOU. HAH.

Moved to the 3rd level FT staff room, met Ms Ng, snapped a few pics, Den popped up...and found out. Dammit, do all the good teachers have to go!? "We'll see you soon, Ms Ng."

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Met Phoebe and DK at the Bus interchange. Moved to TM for lunch. Moved constantly from Macs t Kopitiam....then to Macs again. Got a Big Mac for myself, Priscilla popped up from nowhere, then we moved to the arcade. I tell you, Photo Hunt is addictive.

Soon after, we (except Clar, Kell, Mikey, Ian L. and Caleb) moved to Ben's house for a 'basketball/football game'. Never came true. Instead, we went to the Tampines Park...with Ben of course. Sat down there, had a chat, then broke again. DK, Ben and Mel went back to Ben's house, and I actually walked part of the way with Ave and Den to Wei Sze's house. Didn't know her that well....so I broke as well. "See ya, girls."

And thanks, 6/9 '06. You guys were the best, are the best, and always WILL be the best. Till next year.

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And screw you, guys. Thanks for the memories...and the backstabs in my face. Thanks for the lies, thanks for the truth. Thanks for nothing.

Thanks for being my friends. Thanks for helping me up. Thanks for pulling me down. Thanks for laughing as I break through the floor that was my belief. Thanks for pushing me to a softer ground which didn't break now. Thanks for leaving me hanging without a rope. Thanks for everything you've given me.

Thanks for nothing.

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I thought the lies were true.
Now I know never to trust.
Even though you may be close,
Believe you....I never must.

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And I also had a dream today. I dreamt of something which explains my feelings.

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I dreamt...

Of...

Armageddon.

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